i write better.

he's angry because you're not allowing him to have an outlet.

so he does the things that you dislike. you shut him down. don't do that. steer it away from what you dislike and to something you're okay with.

you did the same to me. you allowed me the guitar then you took it away. but i worked for it and got one myself. you couldn't take away that. you couldn't take away from me my own hard work.

we're both creative kids. we both need to do things with our hands.
i was lucky. i found an outlet. i found something i like to do. i like to shoot. you don't like it one bit but because i've made things happen for myself, you don't take it away from me. but you haven't stopped showing your dislike either.

he sees this and he keeps it. he keeps the anger. he's never understood why and he will never understand. the only person he truly compares himself with is me. problem is i've got a godly level for tolerance compared to him.

all he wants is for you to tell him that you're proud of something he's done. proud of the amount of hardwork he puts into his dancing. proud of him.

but you're not going allow for me to say this to you. because everytime i try, you shut me down with how you're hurt. and i feel it double. the both of us do.

we'll we're hurting too.