the flood gates open but nothing comes out.

honest to God.

i don't know what i have been up to lately and the type of person i have been.

i haven't been keeping up healthy functioning relationships with my closest peers (all of them).
i haven't been keeping up healthy functioning relationships with my family members.
i haven't been keeping up a healthy functioning relationship with my better half.

i don't know what i have been doing. i honestly don't know who or where i am at right now.

this is interterm.

BUSY.
   LEAVE A MESSAGE. WHENEVER/WHEREVER.

hello new year.

right. that time of the year again. the new year i mean.


i am grateful. i really am. i don't know how we happened.

(well, i know how we happened with that night that i started texting you and the events just prior to that. that i know and remember. but what i don't know or cannot seem to recall is when exactly is how we got comfortable. how we got affectionate. how we got to laughing over stupid things together.)

but it doesn't matter. i am thankful it happened. and i am thankful it still is.

also, my brother is enlisting in 3 months.